Out of sorts

The last few days have been odd to say the least. For some reason I have been feeling very emotionally off and not really checked into what I am feeling which is very unlike me. Today I even woke up two minutes before I had my 8am and for me that is out of sorts completely. I jumped out of bed and rushed to class as fast as I could. But even when I did that it didn't really stress me out or get me worked up, I just strolled in to class a few minutes late and sat down before it even started. Even today when I had an extremely busy day and was freaked out the day before I found myself in a tranquil state. I don't think I have ever been this out of touch with my feelings or what is going on. It's kind of like everything and everyone around me is moving in slow motion and I'm just kind of checked out. I can't explain very well what I am feeling which I feel very bad about because my friends don't know how to help. Maybe I am just feeling lonely, the last time I got like this it all came down to that. I am surrounded by a bunch of people who love and care for me but for some reason I just check out and separate myself from them. Maybe its the fact that when I get really close to people something bad happens where things get ruined. I don't want to push my friends away but don't know how to explain my feelings with out them getting mixed up or misinterpreted. I could just be stressed and I even kinda miss home a little with everything that has been going on here. I miss my little buddy and can not wait to see him soon. For now I guess im just a little out of sorts.