Never trust a man

My nana always told me, "Al, never trust a man who doesn't drink." Well by then I was in middle school and really didn't understand what that meant at that age. Today would have been her 85th birthday so I like looking back and thinking about some of my favorite memories and things she used to say and I really just wish she was here. Lately I've been feeling like I can't trust men in general not just the ones who don't drink. This year especially I have put myself out there more than I ever have in high school and have had no success and each failure takes a huge toll on my confidence. I just feel like its really hard t trust that thing will work out when they just have continually just let me down and feeling not good enough. That has never been something I have ever really felt in my life, maybe not talented, or tall, but never not good enough. Its not something I can help, I mean when just nothing ever works out you can't help but think well is it me who is the problem. I replay every thing I said things I did, and I can't figure out where things went wrong. Did I talk too much? Was my out fit wrong? Did I say the wrong thing? Did I not pick up on the hints or red flags? I've thought and thought and can't figure it out. I just don't know anymore. All of my friends just say things like, "well he is an ass", or "clearly something is wrong with him". But they are supposed to say that, they are my friends. But not everything can be wrong with them and nothing wrong with me. I've grown to not trust them when they say they had a great time, I don't expect a call or text after because they haven't ever come. So nana I don't think its just the men who don't drink that you can't trust.