Back In The Game

I am the type of person who starts things with good intent to do them but never quite keeps up with them. Hence not blogging for months. In my defense I have been trying to live more in the now and really haven't found myself with enough free time to scribble down a few of my current emotions in a blog. Plus I really am not sure if anybody really reads this so it is more for my personal benefit. But here goes nothing with attempt number two of blogging. It wasn't until today sitting with my two friends at lunch that I have realized that I am now entering the world of causally dating. A few weekends ago I went out to a movie with this boy I had been texting and it went really well but after the date one thing led to another and we just stopped talking. It was a really great experience though getting myself out there and trying something new. Despite my slight break down a half hour before in Primark about not wanting to go anymore because I was too nervous, I had a really good time and realized that dating isn't as scary as I thought. Today I actually got asked to go to coffee with this boy who goes to school in the city as well. He seems to be nice and interesting and I am really working on going into this with less nerves and just going with the flow. Plus its only coffee, which is also he way to my coffee obsessed heart. All my friends from home and school think it is good that I am putting myself out there, I on the other hand just end up really nervous and miserable with all the first date jitters and the waiting till they text you later. It's the fear of rejection that really gets me. I understand that some people just aren't that compatible but I would still much rather have a new friend than someone just completely drop me. But here goes nothing.